Sometimes in life, we eat our words.    This doesn’t retract past convictions or indicate deceit, but rather demonstrates our ability to evolve.  Sometimes in life, we are faced with new faces and opportunities.  In these meetings, we are sometimes introduced to new truths.

Eight and a half months ago, I told myself I would never walk down the aisle.  Yet today I find myself in a sea of e-mails from photographers and caterers, and fielding calls from DJ’s in a valiant effort to plan not one, but two weddings.  How two people who weren’t ever sure they were going to be married wound up with two weddings, I’ll never know, but I kind of like it.


I’ve done a lot of thinking about weddings lately. Having come from a very conservative family, planning a wedding and getting married is all part of growing up. The majority of my childhood friends, mostly of similar conservative upbringing, are already married and starting families. Me? Not so much.

I was never the little girl who had visions of my dream wedding. I’ve never skimmed wedding magazines just because. To me, weddings are so… showy. Couples start their lives together with a ridiculous amount of debt, and for what reason? To show their family and friends the legitimacy of their relationship by throwing a party they can’t really afford?

That’s not to say that I don’t believe in marriage, because I absolutely do. I love the idea of loving someone so unconditionally that you can reasonably promise them forever. I want to grow with someone, grow old with someone, I just want to do it without the white dress and expensive venue.

What are your thoughts?


Hair cuts are a funny thing.  We tell ourselves, “Oh, it’s just hair…”  But is it really?  I can’t help but feel different everytime I have my hair cut.  Perhaps it’s because I’ve never believed in trims or simply cleaning things up.  My hair is always distinctly different once I get out of the chair. 

Colleen and I ventured to Surrey to visit my hairdresser last night.  By the time we left, she’d had a few too many glasses of red, and I was missing half of my hair.  I don’t know how else to describe it other than an edgy bowl cut.  Which probably sounds ridiculous, though I suppose it is a little.  But I like it.


Hello there and welcome to bigbeautifulfemme 2.0!  I decided to revive bigbeautifulfemme and utilize my little space on the Internet.  I’ve upgraded to hosting from http://www.surpasshosting.com/ and plan to renew the domain once I’m satisfied with the layout.  I’ve got a few other projects in mind, so watch this space for those! 

Also, I’m looking to do some link exchanges, so let me know if you’re interested in that. :)